its been a while since i revamped. all of what i said before is still true, but i am bored of seeing the words. some i will keep. some i will ditch in favour of new words.

this brings me to the first point. i love words. they are one of the few things i feel i truly understand and can, to a point, control. equally these are something which can control me to such an extent i am overwhelmed at times. that is not to say that a look, touch, taste or smell doesnt have the capability to move me, hold me, mould me.

to the sense of smell - i love my bed, it smells nice. or at least it does to me. i try and smell good at all times.
i drink a lot of tea. an inordinate amount of tea in fact. i am apparently one of the most crazy girls my friends know, but also the most sensible. i am a walking contradiction. the madonna and the whore.

i love porn but also insist that people use coasters, more than that, i insist people use manners. sometimes i feel terribly english but in the old fashioned way. that is not to say i dont appreciate the use of swear words, i can shame a builder's mate with my language but it is used for effect rather than a lack of vocabulary.

i abhor mess and find dirty hair, hands, dishes, clothes and bedding a turn off. which is quite something as i love sex and am sick of people issuing me morals for saying so. just because i love being sexual does not mean i am with just anyone. no no. i am loyal to the end and expect the same in return. this goes for friendships too. i will fight anyone to the death for the honour and protection of those i care about. truefact.

i get called a lot of names, by that i mean cool and fun things like Combat Kitten, Mama Rock, Klitty Von-Cumslime (thanks Tim), Kitster, Kiki-Ow, Lapdance, Pat Butcher, Baby Cow, Queen Imp. mostly i like pet names, they get the better of me. which they shouldn't, because i'm hardcore.

almost every time i am alone at home, i dress up and sing in my mirror. sometimes i'm prince, sometimes i'm madonna, sometimes these days i am just my alter ego. sometimes i'm lucky enough to have friends who do this with me. i often wonder whether this will stop with age. i doubt it, and what's more i look forward to dressing up and singing lil kim in my mirror when i'm 97 just to fuck with the nurses in the retirement home i'm in.

i knew a boy once who took me on the coolest dates I have ever heard of. He told me later that the reason they were so cool was because his aim was to make it feel like we were in a film for every one. Whether it was feeding the ducks or driving in the rain for hours just to show me something or running around in the moonlight. Not afraid of doing the usual things but equally unafraid of stepping out of the standard. That my friends, is fucking cool.

a girl and I who were inseparable through my late teens used to pack our bags full of anything we would conceive needing and arrive at the bus station and get on the first bus leaving, go to its final destination no matter where it was. Sometimes we had everything we needed with us. Sometimes we were totally unprepared. Sometimes it was a fucking park and ride car park with nothing but a burger van at the end, other times we’d end up in the most amazing countryside and run around through trees and roll around on beaches. That’s life damnit. Sometimes you can smell the burger van and know you’ve fucked it, other times you can be climbing the top of a tree, laughing your head off until you get to the top and suck a big fat breath in because you are higher than you thought you’d ever get.

dont get thrown by the poses. i'm so nice i think i should invest more time in being a cunt. fact.



my 'musical' alter ego



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BIZARRE magazine ".....is the girl that you wish people saw when they looked at you. Or, for boys, the girl you fantasise about, but know, in your heart of hearts, you really have no means of handling."

JOEY "your voice is like having held hands... late at night in a warm bed with the lights out, listening to sleepy breath, coming in and out... evenly from your partners relaxed body.... and sometime in the night your friend arrives with a glass of water for a thirsty mouth and kisses your cheeks and whispers something small that you remember in the years to come.... this is what your voice sounded like to me..."

THE HUMANITY, STRAVICK, JOHNNY SEXUAL, SOMETIME, THE DUKE SPIRIT, TRABANT, prince, queens of the stoneage, twilight singers, g&r, primal scream, fugazi, bjork, kate bush, dre, beastie boys, girls vs boys, moloko, the cult, snoop, madge, prince, monster magnet, 80s matchbox, gus gus, black rebel motorcycle club, peaches, moldy peaches, jawbox, down by law, bad religion, the knife, the stones, blondie, 80s power ballads, sisters of mercy, abc, yeahyeahyeahs, jeff buckley, be good tanyas, probot, wham, black sabbath, david bowie, dio, bloc party, boston, death from above 1979, helmet, kings of leon, scorpions, Jolie Holland, Pat Benetar, PJ harvey, taylor dane, billy idol, the pixies, turbonegro, prince again, smashing pumpkins, the mother fuckin CRUE man, lionel-fucking-ritchie, beethoven, orff, maria callas, mario lanza - actually this could go on too long......rock is god, 80s cheese gets me moving, i heart big hair sunset strip metal and trucker 70s stoner rock, something which cuts you so deep you cry and someone you can pretend to be in your mirror at home when getting ready to go out, .., ..

swingers, breakfast at tiffanys, breakfast club, labyrinth, dazed and confused, being john malkovich, dangerous liasons, betty blue, akira, jay and silent bob, how to marry a millionaire, jason and the argonauts, wild at heart, the goonies, lost boys, manequinn, ferris bueller, batman returns, the crow, blade, burt reynolds films.....

marion and geoff, six feet under, human remains, that 70s show, antiques roadshow, wife swap, state of play, murder she fuckin wrote, diagnosis murder, mcguyver, magnum, the vice, columbo, nighty night, judging amy, CSi, CSI, CSI, CSI holy shit i love detective programmes.

secret garden / dead kid songs / the war of don emmanuels nether parts / the picture of dorian grey / the lion the witch and the wardrobe